My mom is a total pain in the ***?

im tired of her im tired of her ******* christanty My mom sent me to juvie for 2 months last year when she found out i was emo becuase of my green hair and bangs and studs yes im emo i denied everything in juvie untili was sent out im in a band i call suicide spree my songs are about self harm and anti christ my mom turned me into an ant christ becuase of her crap she yells at me alot yesterday i wore a t shirt to piss her off on purpose that said jesus is a cnt on the back and today i wore A Marilyn manson t shirt i tried alot of suicide atemps to get away from my mom which i failed at my mom tried to put me in a christain school and i got my self expelled on the first day for marilyn manson attire and me screaming im a antichrist in the halls my mom arranged me to go to boot camp friday so how coulld i Kill Myself to end it all should it be a murder suicide